I've been eating like a madwoman! I think, well I know its partially because I'm pregnant but also because my healthy husband is gone and I can eat whatever I want without getting the non-existent side eye. I say non-existent because he really doesn't give me a hard time. But he also doesn't always join me, which makes me feel terrible. LOL! It's funny because when he doesn't join me in my eat like its your last day here, I often opt for the healthier choice, which is usually quinoa, salmon, and a salad. So much better for me, but so not a cheeseburger! In the last couple of days, I've devoured an entire pizza, a philly cheesesteak sandwich, frosted flakes, etc. That's the worst of it actually but its literally been two days. Tonight I cooked spaghetti, with vegetable noodles. The guilt is beginning to set in...

Everyone's got a thing

WE all have something that we have to work on daily. Something that chips away at the better parts of ourselves if we don't get a handle on it. Mine is trust. I think its taken me a little while to identify it but there it is. Mistrust is a cousin to fear and to insecurity, and sometimes, they all tag along making a good day, bad. What I am realizing is that I, in my journey to be better, haven't really been paying much attention to my healing process. All of my fixes have been quick and temporary. A little therapy there, some yoga over here, exercise there, and of course prayer and meditation. But in all of my pursuits, I lack consistency. So what can I do? What will I do? Because if I don't do something...this thing will eat me up. It makes me think of the video game PacMan. And everyone of those dots represents something that I love or that I feel like I may have worked hard for...but the doubt sets in followed by fear and lack of faith...and then in no time...the dot is gone. So what's your thing? And are you feeding it or healing it?

Sooooo tired

I am pretty exhausted today. i don't want to write at all. i want to sleep a lot!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so I'm going to...right now.